Helping Children...

Hi y'all, I would like to join hands across America to make this great nation of ours into a much safer and happier place for all children. There are so many abused and discarded kids that I've cared for an a RN. It's sad and frightening to see so many of them fall between the cracks!
You need a license for marriage, fishing, hunting, boating, driving a car, piloting a plane and perhaps even jaywalking in some states! But you don't need a license or any preparation to be a parent! I propose a bill to be introduced through the Senate and Congress to have a mandatory subject added to school, Grades K through college. A bill that will teach them how to get along with their fellow human beings and, as they get older, classes on being a good parent! Also stronger laws making it a felony with a mandatory sentence of 10-20 years for proven child abuse! I mean proven without a shadow of a doubt!
I have seen horrendous examples of child abuse. A baby who's mother decided he should die because he had a spinal cord problem. She put him into an oven to burn him alive! I had to take care of him till he died with burns over most of his body! Or the 17 yr old boy who sat down into scalding hot water because his mother ordered him to do it! He did too because he needed his mother's "love"! No splash marks either! He very nearly died! There are so many gruesome things that these "parents" think up for these kids! It needs to stop now!
Perhaps when we clean up our own back yard, we can continue to show the world what must be done to protect their own children too! It's got to start with our lawmakers! We need as many people as possible to write to their own representatives...by e-mail preferably...I've heard that handwritten letters are routinely treated for Anthrax and are no longer readable! Write by e-mail and tell your representatives you've had enough about child abuse and that , if they want to keep being your reps, they must pass a bill doing the above outlined things! Tell them if they don't you will not vote for them to even be dog-catchers again! We need this introduced ASAP and nothing but "yes' votes will be tolerated! No "abstaining" votes either, as that's the same as 'No"! Thanks, for the children we will save from present and future abuse!

A new day...a new beginning...

Well, today is a brand new day...a new beginning for me. I got a second chance in life following the heart attack and now it's time for me to see the glass as half-full rather than half-empty! If he can't take me with my enthusiasm for life and my love to help all people, it's HIS loss, NOT MINE! I tried to tell him there was nothing to read between the lines and that I didn't "Have anything on him", but he didn't listen! So now, I must go on alone! It hurts...very much...but if he hates me for something I never did and will never do to hurt him, then I can't explain it any clearer than that.
Why do men always think that there has to be something behind why you would do something for them? I did things because I thought he would laugh and be happy because of it. For no other reason but that! I wish he would at least talk to me again, but he hates me for something that I can't figure out. I've tried to think back on things we talked about, but, for the life of me, I can't figure it out! There's nothing stupid about me, but I can't figure the logic of his reasoning! It makes no sense...I am as I am...all of my cards are on the table...take me as I am because I won't hide behind double-loaded words! What I say, I mean...and I will never hurt him! I'm not a vindictive person...I don't believe in it. I wish him that Lady Luck will follow him always...I wish him much success in his main business...I wish him success on the new website that I was supposed to be his partner. I wish that he will see his son soon, but if not, that they talk at least every week on IM. I hope his website goes viral...all around the globe. I made him an awesome logo and catch phrase for the website, but I guess he will never hear them.
He is too proud, I guess, to tell me he was wrong and that he wants to talk again. I wish he would ask...I would love to be his friend again. We used to talk all night about alot of things and we would chuckle with laughter about little things! It was so easy to get along before he decided that he hated me. He said he had read between the lines and he knew I had something to hold over him. BUT WHAT WAS IT??? I have no idea now and I didn't have any idea then! He blocked me so I can't contact him anymore. It makes me sick that he hates me at all. If I was guilty of anything, it was that I trusted him 100%, even gave him control of my computer. The cards and books I sent to him so that he would laugh so hard that he would cry! For no other reason known to me. I wanted to make his life easier by helping him with his new website, and to give him the very best web design available!I even thought about giving him the Epcot ticket and let him have all he can get for it to pay for his son's college fund! I wanted nothing in return except for great conversation with the man I fell for . He's such an interesting and complex man and I loved all the talks late in the nightand intothe wee hours of the morning. We laughed so hard and were so excited about doing things for the future together. But he accused me of trying to take his Twitter followers from him and for taking his new company from him! As far as the Twitter followers go, he encouraged me to get others followers to follow me, including his own. And for the website, he had said he wanted something to blow him away and said his host company had fantastic templates and everything to build it with. So I told him I looked into the company and would build him the finest website available! But, instead of being happy about it, he turned on me, accusing me of stealing that too. Then he blocked me from following him on Twitter.
I tried to explain on e-mail, but he must have only read the "MAN WAY": Misinterpreting all that he read, Allegations that he read things between the lines, and Yelling at me because of what he thought he read between the lines! I really wish we would talk again...we had so much fun! I forgive him completely. I'd make the first move if I thought he would talk. I pray that Jesus will soften his heart and allow him to see that I have NO ulterior motives! I just liked to be his close friend and collaborator on his books and the website! Then if something draws us closer, that's fine, and if not, they we would remain very best friends and business partners!
Oh well, I can't cry over spilt milk anymore...I will go on without him. But I'd rather be with him! He would be so proud of what I've done...I want to tell him that I am good in everything he taught me, but I can't because he hates me! I will cry occasionally, but I will go on!

Better today...

Feeling better today. My heart isn't having the missed and extra beats as it did yesterday...and so far, no chest pain! Thank you to all who have prayed for my health. Please continue as I'm still not out of the woods yet. The medication is making me dizzy and sleepy! Ugh!
This is going to be short...can barely stay awake...must snooze for a short nap! Later, y'all

Stronger every day...

Hi y'all, thanks again for your prayers for my health. I'm getting stronger every day, except for much bruising across my chest from the seatbelt. Still recovering from the minor heart attack...on higher meds to keep the arrythmias down to a minimum though. It makes me very dizzy if I stand quickly...so I try not to do that! LOL!
I've been practicing yoga to relax and thinking positively that I'll be off the meds soon and returning to my regular exercise regimen soon! Also singing aloud with no complaints from the neighbors...YET!!! Perhaps I should sell tickets? HMMM..... Nice idea!!
Well, I must scoot...bad t'storm brewing in the neighborhood! Love to walk in the rain, but NOT when it's lightning! I have no death wish!!! LOL! Have a great night! Ciao!

Getting better every day!

Hi y'all, I'm getting stronger every day! Thanks again for all the prayers from my Twitter followers! They really do help! I'm @IndygirlBL on Twitter...for all who care to follow!
It's catharctic to write about my feelings on this page. Even if my ex-friend will never read these things I write about, I hope that Jesus will soften his heart & remind him of why he used to follow me in the first place! And to remember all of our late-night into the wee hours of the morning talks that often made us roll with laughter. I only wish him the best in life with his son, his business, new website and with a great life in general! And to finally tell him that I never lied to him & would certainly never hurt him because I loved him! And still do! I don't know why he couldn't stand my enthusiasm for life...Tony Robbins would encourage it! And, finally, I don't why he suddenly hated me...I never did anything to my knowledge to incur his wrath!
Bye for now, y'all! I'm getting better every day with friends such as you!

A better day ahead...

Hi y'all, thanks for all the prayers for my health! I'm feeling better today, but with even a minor heart attack, you don't know what will happen next! I need to try not to get over-excited in the next few days, I guess! Hopefully, I'll get stronger in the days ahead and be able to start my regular exercise regimen again! For now, I'll concentrate on yoga...which is excellent, especially if you need to relax!
I'm looking forward to better days ahead...trying not to dwell on the loss of my ex-friend! I do want him to succeed with anything he does...just wish he had trust in me! I certainly did have trust in him! Even now, I have no animosity towards him. I must go on & continue writing my Thrillers, children's books and illustrations. I may even write a song about my heartache...they say that life & loss make you stronger...we'll see!

Lies or truth?

My ex-friend accused me of trying to get something on him...wish I had thought yesterday to challenge him to a lie-detector test! I would have passed with flying colors, but I don't think he would have accepted even that! Lies or truth? I try never to tell lies...you have a tendency to get caught up in them and that's not a good thing! The truth is generally the best policy! But even the truth can't save someone who is innocent of charges against them! Truth doesn't always prevail...He should know that, but not in my case, I guess!
Lies or truth? Truth or lies? I guess it really didn't matter to him that I'm innocent! Only time will tell him, I guess, when nothing happens to him from my end! It's so sad when people are broken up because of misunderstandings....no one wins in the end...and one or both cry into the night and awaken with only the lingering sadness that remains....lies or truth? I'll take truth any day! But he didn't....